🫧Old Alchemy🫧       

My head‘s an alchemic furnace that’s been
Used to break down the silver of the soul to gold
Now it’s been so long
It only turns my heart’s
Sadness to wet coal 

I am of old alchemy
The sickness of the mind
I’m chemically inclined to be 
Walking on the line
Between two worlds
Of laughter, brightness, thoughts so kind                                     
Fighting shadows of the clouded darkened mind 
That merge in this alchemic bind

It burned so bright now I feel so low
Deathly rivers in my veins that flow 
Arsenic 
Has taken to my stream
Poisoning my very being 

I am of old alchemy
The sickness of the mind
I’m chemically inclined to be 
Walking on the line
Between two worlds
Of laughter, brightness, thoughts so kind                                     
Fighting shadows of the clouded darkened mind 
That merge in this alchemic bind

My old alchemic furnace
With soiled pipes, belly so cold
Where is the fire, your flames, your coal
The warmth you were given 
Simply because it was so
Beautifully birthed as any
And every being to walk this earth
So worthy n twisted the hurt took its toll

Burn my love again, 
Swaddle me up n tight with my furnace’s shining light
Keep me warm from thoughts that suffocate my breath tight
Of shadows that want to drown and desert 
me in my fatal indolence this night

🩰Anxious Ballet🩰

I feel like I‘m going to die any second

There’s fluoric acid on my skin
Growing 1 2 3
The decay of my teeth
I can feel it through
Each and every second it expands
So see me dancing like a prawn

I feel like I’m dying any second
If I speak out loud
Or choose the wrong position
Cause I can never sort them out

There’s a bomb in my head
It’s ticking
Tongue tied
to keep the trigger mild
Please all and twist my bones
Please don’t leave me alone

Da da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da
Da da da da I’m weary and tense
Da da da da  da da
And I

Feel like I’m dying any second
If I speak out loud
Or choose the wrong position
Cause I can never sort them out

I feel like I’m dying any second
If I speak out loud
Or choose the wrong position
Cause I can never sort them out

🪦Family Grave🪦
I mourn the flow of the river
Into the sea
The way new branches grow
Out of the tree
Two birds collide
Their eyes blinded
They couldn’t see

Oh
I can feel you ache
Ah
Like twigs you break my legs
So I’ll bleed dry
In your family grave

I mourn the withering of
The womb
For the fall into its
Predestined tomb
I feel the aching in its core
Its leaves have fallen
For dead or asleep
In silence the cycle remains
And repeats

Oh
I can feel you ache
Ah
Like twigs you break my legs
So I’ll bleed dry
In your family grave

I birth my own
Suffering and
Scarcely
Search for
Spores of life
In the corpse of my
Beloved dead

Oh
I can feel you ache
Ah
Like twigs you break my legs
I will bleed dry
In your family grave

Oh
I can feel you ache
Mh
Like twigs you break my legs
So I’ll bleed dry
In your family grave
I lie
Dying inside

✨Esophagus ✨

I cried
My body‘s weight in tears
I scratched
My throat until it bleeds
I sliced   
The oranges to juice
Throwing up
Till my esophagus‘ wounds

Spinning my neck to the twist of my spine Forward,
backward bend to conform n confine
My vessel, my growth to the cartilage of people that are not kind

They’re not mine
Not mine
No it’s not mine
Words so unkind
My esophagus won’t be fine

I plugged
Those eyes out from my head
That distorted
Every sight, every step
She climbed
So fiercely to my aid
On my skin
The tattoo to match the trade

Spinning my neck to the twist of my spine Forward  backward I bend to conform and confine
My vessel, my growth to the cartilage of people that are not kind

They’re not mine
Not mine
No it’s not mine
To be so unkind
My esophagus won’t be fine

Till I teach you to love
Your body’s design            
Made in wombs of pure gold
Clear waters that shine
Feed to nourish your size
It’s so right

Spinning my neck to the twist of my spine Forward  backward I bend to conform and confine
My vessel, my growth to the cartilage of people that are not kind

They’re not mine
Not mine
No it’s not mine
To be so unkind
My esophagus won’t be fine

Become aligned
Once more              
To the rhythm of consciousness
Be kind to yourself and esophagus

🕯️Flickering Flame🕯️

It goes flick flick flick
Flick flick
Like a flickering candle light

Tick tick tick tick tick
Without fuel thoughts
Are drifting by

I can't fix fix fix
Fixate
My thoughts to save my life

Rolling rolling rolling down
Every hill that I climbed

Please help
And notice me
While I drown in wax of bees
Dripping thoughts
In my daydreams

Get up
And change your sheets
Peel your skin from toe to ears
To stay awake
With drowsy tears

Wait? What was the lyrics,again?
Oh yeah,

It goes flick flick flick
Flick flick
Like a flickering candle light

Tick tick tick tick tick
Without fuel thoughts
Are drifting by

I can't fix fix fix
Fixate
My thoughts to save my life

Rolling rolling rolling down
Every hill that I climbed

I'm a candle
With always flickering light
Restless through the night
Despite knowing
I burn too bright
I gotta keep my light up
Right